Invisible

There are most days that I long to be

Invisible to the unaided eye,

The world wherein I succumb to the still silence

Pondering so many unanswered questions within my heart

Feeling misunderstood at the thoughts

I take out of my mouth to be heard,

But only mistaken for drama.

I sought to get back up again.

To make it be known

that those words were authentic

From deep within my heart.

Words, that I've held on for so long,

that it has aged like an antique furniture.

Afraid to gather dust,

I speak the words with my mouth

Wanting it to be heard.

To resound from the depths of my soul.

To reach those who have been etched in my mind.

To hear such truth put forth

during the times I lay awake in bed.

Feeling invisible to the world,

with the things I've held on to in my silence for years

that only seem to break me apart

inch by inch

little by little

internally in my invisible ways.

 

© SHEJOY19

Through My Brown Eyes

If you could see through my brown eyes,
You'd be surprise to know the things
experienced in the last two months.
The tears I have shed,
leaving my eyes red and swollen,
like allergy attacks unmedicated.

You would see the pain,
The pain that pierced through my heart
Leaving it wounded and unaided
Not even a naked eye could see.

Why?
For the pain is hidden,
Buried deep onto the ground
Like golden treasure.
The pain I hide with a smile,
I dare not open for the world to know.

For all I know,
everything I have seen these last two months,
is not just a series of turmoils,
rather life changing in many ways
strengthening my weary soul
during the darkest times of my life.

© SHEJOY19

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The Lake

The sun is raised

ablaze upon the heavenly skies
shining its rays
reflecting on water
where a sense of peace is found within the heart.
Peace within chaos surrounding my weary soul.
where hope is waiting to spring up,
like flowers blooming in spring time.
The scenic view of the lake
A heart that longs to find peace,

Wounded from fighting many battles on its own.

And longing to stand up from the ground

with its glistening water

providing a serene feeling in the heart,

enabling peace to surround it,

by gazing out the vast area of the never ending lake.

©SheJoy19

Forgiveness

Forgiveness.
What is Forgiveness?
An individual needing to be renounced for their fault.
A fault that has made the other party disappointed,
with an angry heart filled with so much hatred.

A heart that bleeds, as if wounded by a round of bullets.
A heart that aches when unleashing a wrath of words,
not meant to be said, but rather to be kept in silence.
A heart that yearns for a change of hope and hearts to change.
A heart that wants to forgive in silence even in the darkest times.
A heart that opens to the Lord about the struggles in forgiving,
is the heart that longs to be free and at peace in the days to come.

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©SheJoy19

Blessing

A blessing came into the world today

Filling the room with joy

And "awees" in the background.

The blessing was like a burrito,

only swaddled in blankets.

To be cuddled by anxious parents

against their chests

pressing into their heart

enabling the blessing to feel its love.

The love that will bond like glue,

Signifying together forever

For the many memories to be made in stone

In the years to come.

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©SheJoy19

What is Love?

What is Love?

Is it when spring comes around

and flowers bloom in the fields?

Is it created when sparks of fireworks

are seen in the air, as if a feeling of excitement in one's heart?

Is it when two individuals meet eye to eye, only to discover qualities that enable them to be united as one?

Is it when one feels the other's flesh in a steamy bar filled with smoke, as the music echoes while they danced like there is no tomorrow?

Is it simply its own nature unraveling on its own time, like planting seeds on the ground?

Now that's love, for it grows like seeds planted onto the ground.

©SheJoy19

The Remedy

What is it about a pile of emotions?

Like layers of cake outside the bakery,

all decorated and colorful.

Or is it?

Simply a pile of unwanted junk

needing its own remedy,

A taste of liquor and coke.

A remedy, that only provides

a few hours of unwanted baggage

filled with blackouts

for a brief period of time.

The remedy in full swing takes up my whole body,

entering a new realm.

A realm I've entered two years ago.

Never did I look back to it.

Till the day when my pile of emotions

struck me again in full swing,

like a lightning strike on a stormy day.

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©SheJoy19